Over the course of the past year I have been both beginning and ending things in my life. I believe in the notion that when you are complete with something it is time to lovingly set it free, opening oneself up to more possibility, more opportunity. Sometimes we must be willing to let something go to make room for that new thing, that new potentiality that is awaiting us. I spent the second half of 2015 remaining open while I continued to empty and purge. I was ready for change, and for me that change meant completely diving into M.E. = My Experience.
I always come back to the wisdom of my favorite poet, Mary Oliver:
“Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?”
-excerpt from The Summer Day, by Mary Oliver
I reflect on this often, this wildly precious existence that is both never-ending and impermanent. I think it’s natural for us to drift in the dreamscape of what was, wondering what we have done up until this point. Oftentimes this can be met with judgment, whether the existence or the choices we have made up until this point has been “good” (or helpful as I like to view it) or “bad” (or not in alignment)… and, if you’re anything like me, sometimes one area of judgment (or perception) can be stickier than the other, leaving me momentarily frozen in time as the ever mindful observer.
When that eventually bypasses (and it always does), I come back to the wonder, to this natural moment of awareness and ask myself what I am planning to do with my one wild and precious life… and the answer is always present, yet I may not always be in the same time zone.
What appears so clearly in my minds eye, spiraling around me as obvious wisps of wisdom?
I’m meant to take my one wild and precious life and RISE.
It’s about reaching total potentiality. Not pausing in the wake of doubt or fear; relinquishing control that guilt or shame may have and inviting it to tea, befriending ourselves, meeting our spirits exactly where we are at, and taking that momentum forward to our complete alignment in harmony with All that is: the Universe, the Multi-verse, the Yoni-verse… simply ALL.
I’ve been asked over the years when I would offer “my” work. My work — the road that I so passionately walk myself, sometimes joined by others, sometimes traveling solitary as I engage my surroundings. I’ve put it off for a number of reasons, some seemingly more convincing than others, and the “timing” never felt correct.
Time is a funny thing. Last year I experienced both the joys and the sorrows of time. I delighted in celebrating my inner child’s curiosity of living in 2015 — the same time-frame as Marty McFly (I am a huge “Back to the Future” dork with lots of love of everything 80s)… I remember being a child and listening to Prince’s “1999” and thinking that it was this far-off place that only existed in his creative mind. Marty McFly journeying to the future when I was a mere child in the 80s? Inspiring! And completing out of any scope of understanding that I could rationally wrap my head around. And yet… here we were, just a few months ago. I’ll admit to signing everything that day with “Happy Back to the Future Day!” which prompted a lot of conversation met with child-like wonder and enthusiasm.
I experienced sorrow in the way of family health crisis, and an inevitable loss to one of those health diagnosis, inviting a new ancestor into our family. Every loss, every change, every death brings an opportunity of reflection, while also processing through a myriad of emotions that sail through a mixed wave of response. What always arrive on that sail is time. Not just in the form of what was, but in the awakening of what will be.
What have I done with my time? And what will I choose to do with it now?
I know I’m not alone in this. We’re all here stepping into, embodying, and enacting our Great Work — this larger than linear-time expression of our Purpose: why are we here, and what exactly is the legacy we hope to leave behind? That may be a bit much for some to look at in-depth at this moment, yet it’s presently holding space in our atmosphere. What will we choose?
So much of my Great Work has been working with women. Creating the safe and sacred container for us to explore, rise, and ultimately heal with the support of other sacred sisters who are looking to do the same. We teach one another, and we learn from one another. This is the traditional way of women. I want to return to that space; the space where we’re supporting one another rather than attempting to one-up each other; I want to return to the space where we can honor, acknowledge, and express our emotions while remaining strong and empowered, instead of being seen as weak or emotional; I want to return to the space of spiritually awakening and partnering with the Universe instead of stepping too far into the cave of fear and doubt, preventing balance and harmony. I want to return to this space with other women and build the tribe of transformative work.
This is where Wise Wombyn Rising was built: from a call to action for women to rise up and step fully in their power. If this is YOU, if you feel called to journey on this road to self-healing, self-discovery, and self-empowerment, then join me in this 9-month rebirthing process. Open, expand, and awaken unto yourself, in solidarity and sacredness.
Take those first steps back home to yourself…